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Oct. 6th, 2015 10:01 pm
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It has been many months since I wrote a post, except for the GYWO community posts I write now and then.  I just came back online last night after almost 2 months without internet.  The first 3 weeks were great!  I got so much done! I got into a good treadmill habit, cooked, read a lot, hammered out words...  And then it started to get dark earlier, and though the cold isn't here yet, the darkness made me feel lonely.  So next thing you know I am using all my data up on my phone.  Not good.

So got back on the internets and here I am watching netflix, some documentary about water. This is however research, for real!  Water and the lack and manipulation of plays a big role in my ms so I thought this would be interesting.  In fact it is, and has given me some ideas, but it sure is frightening too what parts of the world do with precious water.  (Focus on a tanning factory in India made me nauseous, watching that chemical-laden brackish water pouring into a  river where people bathe and wash and I don't want to know what else).

I am waiting to hear from Hodderscape.  Decisions started going out on the 29th of September.  Nothing yet.  Will they want more?  Will they say thanks but no thanks? Who knows?  Whether or not they want the rest, I'm having so much fun with this story.  I'd like to have it finished by end of the year but we will see.

I also pulled out my ancient fantasy I stopped working on about 15 years ago.  I have no wish to pursue self publishing with it, or traditional publishing (as I am pursuing that with the current ms).  So I am seriously considering having fun with Wattpad with it.  I've got quite a bit of it and I'd like to finish it.  It is funny, rereading that which I wrote long ago makes me realize just how well I wrote back then.  Would that I had never let those who destroyed my belief in what I was doing get near it.   But I am happy with what I am doing now. YA fantasy aka A Girl's Adventure Story is my jam.  As is writing in first person. SO MUCH LOVE.

Otherwise not much else going on.  Kids are good (and both have serious partners! oh my stars), work is good (busy as always), getting my treadmill time in almost every day.  I'm doing Couch to 5k but took off last week. Why did I do that?  Got to get back into it.  My son is staying with me a couple nights a week which is nice, and that is all.

Now to curl up and reread what I wrote by hand at lunch today. I only meant to jot a few things down and ended up writing six handwritten pages. 
Today was a much, much better day. I woke up when the pupsters woke me at 7 (the beasts!) but got up and let them out, and oh! the coolness, the breezes, the lovely aroma of Fall! I made myself a cup of my new coffee I bought (mmm so smooth) and sat outside on the porch and sipped my coffee. Even though it is only the second day, I am starting to realize that I have been masking the true delicious flavors of coffee and my favorite tea (Constant Comment :) with Sweet n Low. No more! I THREW IT OUT! I didn't throw it out the other day because in the back of my head I was fooling myself into thinking that I would get back to it. But I've got a new goal to toss in there - no more sweet n low, ever. No more aspartame, no more ANYTHING artificial. Later if I want sugar I will just use sugar, or Agave. Or honey, or pure maple syrup. Those four are at least natural. Yes?

Okay so back to today. It was 8:15 and I said something to Nick about should I make breakfast or go walking and he said GO WALK! So, we did. Maddox is doing much better about harnessing up. Shelby was asleep in the sun in the hole she recently dug for herself so I decided to leave her at home this time and just took Maddox. He did so well! I am so pleased with him. We walked for almost an hour and a half! He also got his very first geocache!

maddox first geocache

I've ordered him a Geodog dog tag so he can log his own finds. I am sure he is excited about that. (lol)

Got home and made a recipe I found that looked really good - breakfast muffins!

muffins

Ever so slightly healthier than the ones I made full of sugar and flour and such last week. These contain kale, eggs, pretty heirloom tomatoes, mushrooms, etc. So good! Well, the only thing I will change about next time is I will use olive oil instead of the coconut oil the recipe called for. I think my coconut oil is just too rich. So there is a slight sweetness to the muffins I am okay with, but not enthused about.

I also made meatballs! Free range beef combined with chopped up green and yellow onions, and sweet potato and spaghetti squash. That was dinner and it was amazing! That will also be lunch tomorrow with my favorite green beans from Trader Joe's.

I also had frozen grapes today. I kinda love that stuff.

It is the end of the day and I have to say I am very pleased. Got good exercise with Maddox, I ate very well, no sweeteners, had a marvelous nap. Emotionally I feel empowered - as one does when doing something like this at first! What was hard though was not being able to weigh! I have a terrible habit of jumping on the scale off and on during the day, apparently. Not today! *bites nails*

And one last thing I did today was attempt to make Ghee. Well, after totally ruining one pound of expensive Irish butter (sigh) I found a recipe to make it in the microwave then put it in the fridge. SO MUCH EASIER. Thankfully I had another pound of the expensive Irish butter (unsalted, btw). I rather like Ghee.

Today was also my dad's 81st birthday, so I called and talked to him for a long time. He finally, FINALLY is doing email regularly, since he got a new Kindle Fire! I have long wanted him to get with the program re: email and he finally has. :)

So all in all a good day. A very good day indeed.
My Nano novel is going to be my fantasy novel - not THE fantasy novel but the prequel that that Tor editor suggested in an offhand way (oh so many years ago) that she thought I should write. It is outlined like a big boss, beautifully-scrivenerized, and though I intend to start from scratch with it, I was a bit bored at work and since I have to at least pretend like I am working I decided to poke around on my dropbox and see what I had out there already written on it. To my amusement (and dismay), I found no less than seven different openings to this story. SEVEN!!!

Obviously, I didn't know what to do with this story, just a vague idea of the issues I wanted to explore. I changed my mind soooo many times on how to approach the opening to the story. Soft opening, with KAPOW after a few paragraphs? Starting with high action? I could not (for the longest time) figure out who the MC should be - male or female, Jax or Maiya, or sometimes Naiya. I also changed POV several times. The result of that is a gem like this:

Naiya came to, bound and gagged. Naiyan a cramped cart, alone, on his side. My face
hurt where She’d been struck, his ribs stabbed him with each breath.


Search and replace disasters!!! BWA HA HA HA HA.... OMG.

Oh, me....

This evening while watching the rest of Firefly (damn them for cancelling that show way before its time!) I decided I needed to organized all my little tidbits of writing, and my messy dropbox which was way too full. I now have a nice little list of books I want to write, have wanted to write for ages, and found some things I'd forgotten about, too - old bits and bobs of short stories (Caeru! I forgot about him! there is another one I need to find too from that world), LOL two Torchwood fics, the start of Drake's Island I'd totally forgotten that I'd started.

I am so looking forward to this Nano!! Mostly I think because I have so many friends here locally now who are also doing it, but also because I am so looking forward to writing this story finally. I love having a writing community (even though I honestly could invest more physical time to it). Hopefully my desk of awesome will make it easier to be productive. The only bad thing about it is I keep hurting myself on it. My toes hit the ends, my knees the pull out drawer that I am not using. I may end up pulling the drawer off. Ouch.


List of Books I Want to Write/Finish:
(this list is too long)

1. Wayward (the sci fi - still haven't decided whether to expand this or make it three separate parts - working on it)
2. Wild Magic - the Nano novel - multiple POV
3. Blackthumb - spinoff, after a fashion - takes place in same world as Wild Magic but is in first - can I do that? (the book I am currently reading is Very Much Inspiring me to tackle this story soon) - have had plans for this story for a good six, seven years
4. Altered Fates - sequel to the Nano novel (and there are 2 more parts - these 3 are my 'omg have had forever like 15 yrs' novels) (hopefully it won't be another 15 years before they are finished)
5. Wolfhunter - sort of an urban fantasy except it is rural - another one I've had floating around forever, since about 2008
6. Drake's Island - m/m, found the start to it buried in my dropbox. I liked the opening. This one will get written eventually - been hovering around since 2011
7. Tattered Leaves - m/m, 'older/younger' love, inspired by Cheese.

Too long, too many, most of which should've been written already! Dang it!
Yes I am at work and should be working but *looks over shoulder* I am being super bad today because we are rather slow, and don't want to work on this affidavit thingy until tomorrow morning. So!

Swiped gleefully from [livejournal.com profile] pir8fancier, I have bolded the ones I have done, italicized the ones I want to do, and struck out those I would never even consider in a trillion billion years!

Here 'tis!!!

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band.
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyworld
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped (so keeping [livejournal.com profile] pir8fancier's response because she is SMART: "Did you see that YouTube video of that guy who bungee jumped and was crushed against the rocks? No thank you."
12. Visited Paris (No, but I have been to Berlin! MUCH COOLER)
13. Watched a lightning storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child (my daughter wants to and I hope she does)
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train bus
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitchhiked: The Serial killer thing
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb - I have a baby cow!!!! So cute!
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse Um not supposed to look at those!!!!
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise - Not a cruise girl except maybe in Alaska?
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community There was one for a few years in Stephenville, Texas
36. Taught yourself a new language I suck. Tried to learn German but just SUCKED.
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied - At times...not currently! But will again if I can ever get the kids situated!
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo's David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt Yellowstone
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling:
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theatre
55. Been in a movie (student production - so wish I still had a copy of it! I wrote it too)
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a cheque
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favourite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square / Stood in Trafalgar Square/Piccadilly
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job HA HA RAT BASTARD I AM SO BETTER OFF NOW YOU RAT!! HA HA HA!!!!! (though I also WON my Texas Employment Commission against them so as far as Texas is concerned I was NOT fired)
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London - No, but saw them from a distance.....
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House - close! But this was one week after 9-11 so yeah, not getting too close
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chicken pox
89. Saved someone's life (lifeguard in high school - little girl saw daddy, ran for the water and sunk to the bottom - instinct kicked in and I swooped down and got her out and did I get a thank you? No, except from my boss.)
90. Sat on a jury Would LOVE to see what happens after all the hard work we put into cases!
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a lawsuit I am a legal assistant and I hope to hell I am never sued!!!
98. Owned a mobile phone - good grief when was this meme originated?
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day Surely, you're joking! (kept [livejournal.com profile] pir8fancier's answer here!)

Clearly I should do more exciting things but my definition of 'exciting things' is not quite what is left on this list.
So once again a month has passed without my writing a post, even though I have thought about doing so dozens of times. I am not sure where this reluctance to share my life seeps from...but it is there, and real, and I have become so selfish about my personal experiences, wanting to keep all of it to myself that even when I start to share I stop and think nah, no reason to share all that. Still, I do love jotting things down, as it gives me a kick now and then to look at the early months of this lj or my old lj I shared with Nick (twisting_path) and well, just reminiscing about all the fun in the past.

The last month has been full of wondrous and amazing events, as well as some sad and frustrating ones. The good - sharing an experience with someone special we'd both been looking forward to for years and years... Done now! And I am so glad to have been a part of that. Meant so much. The bad - watching some friendships explode and disintegrate (my old crit group), though in the end, I believe where the cards have fallen is a good thing. I adore my Team Awesome, and believe we're all in a good place now. I certainly feel a lot less EEEK now, and have lost the feeling I'd had of not belonging. Friendships lost, but friendships strengthened, and I am glad of that.

So cryptic, Cee!

Not much else going on - my daughter and son are doing well, about to start into school again - Tiff called me today and we talked a good half hour during my lunch about how happy she is now in Orlando. She loves what she is studying, she loves her new Starbucks she has moved to, she loves her roomies (in a house and there is a dog, a darling Golden I got to meet last month), and life is just so HAPPY for her. She likes Orlando now that she is settled there, and knowing she can fly home cheaply and easily helps. Thank goodness for cheapo airfare to Orlando!

Work is going very well - I love working for my boss, love my little firm, I feel in control and settled and I just buzz happily away all day, every day. There is a lot of stress but for some reason I am handling it better than I did. Living alone is kinda weird but kinda nice too... I get home from work, feed the dogs, play with the dogs, cuddle the dogs. Maddox has become like glue on me during the evenings. I spend a lot of time with him curled up with me. Weekends are relaxing - I try to meet Suz at least once a week on weekends to write, and oh I have my Gingerman writing group - we meet Monday nights at The Gingerman, a cute little bar near my work. Am getting to know that crew better and better and just really adore them all. Plus, it is a huggy group. I like hugs. :)

I need to get a dog door put in but this will also entail a massive overhaul of the fence (i.e., electrifying it!) because Maddox is an escape artist and we very nearly lost him a few weeks ago while I was gone, but my neighbor saved him. Whew! He pulls planks off and wiggles through. So frustrating that I can't trust him in his own backyard. :(

Writing...have to say I was and am disappointed with how my last book has done. I have several ideas of why that is so, what contributed to it not doing well (while my other books DO continue to sell well), but such is the way of things, right? Not going to stress over it, it is what it is and hey what I have received in royalties definitely paid a bill that needed paying so that is good.

I've been working on my sci fi, expanding it - about ten scenes to go on that - and am falling hard for the brilliance of Scrivener as it is helping me sort out my fantasy mess, which I have needed to for about oh a decade, I suppose? More later on that, and on writing in general (I say that and then another month will go by, oops). The happy is I found, buried deep in my email, the outline I'd written ages and ages and I do mean more than 9 years ago for this fantasy story, and rereading it now, I can see clearly what will work and what needs to be changed. All in all though? I think it will be a go. It always makes me so happy to visit with these characters! I miss them!

All for now. It is bedtime - haven't been sleeping well since the weekend because dork me burned the roof of my mouth on too-hot pizza. The burns were pretty much agony - last night I finally was able to tolerate warm food. Horrifically painful. :(

This ended up longer than I thought. I do ramble!
Got my new book's cover last night! I am thrilled with it - AQP used my own photograph of Cardiff Bay I took July 2011 as the base for it. Am thrilled to pieces! Woo! The book is out February 3rd. It'll be exciting to see how this does - new publisher and all. Also, new me - I am actually putting effort into getting the word out on this one. I love this story so much, love the setting, love that it is going to be out there. Am hoping the Carolyn Gray readers out there will like it.

HOLD ON HERE - LJ what have you done NOW to pictures?? Forced them to be small? I am not impressed!!! GROWL. Fine fine, click the little thumbnail, please. I am too lazy right now to link it.

ItMightBeMagic


I've been sick, and at home, watching endless documentaries and Lost Girl episodes. I have not been so aware of something coming on as I was this cold-thing. Sunday night, just... POW! SICK!!!! I had a doctor appointment in the morning for my knee, was to go in beforehand, but felt like crap. Driving in to the doctor's i realized I had a fever. Bah. I was tested for flu as it is raging through this area, but thankfully it was negative. Just a quick illness which has left a rough cough behind. Sigh. At least I've been able to cuddle lots with my dogs, especially Shelby. :)

She is such a silly!

puppy


Working on the sci fi now, and so looking forward to getting this one out of here. Then finally, finally! Finally finally finally, am back to actual writing again! YES....

:)
Last class lecture was tonight, and I can honestly say this history class has changed my life.
So, went to Fencon yesterday with my friends Cid and Suz. They combined it this year with the steampunkers and WOW talk about crazy costumes.... Just yeah. Some were truly truly amazing. My beloved Anthony aka [livejournal.com profile] talekyn was in town for business, so he joined us yesterday for some of the fun. He and I also escaped for The Mothership, also known as the very first and original and HUGE Half-Price Books. Anthony collects 'nostalgia' books and he sure made a killing this weekend at The Mothership plus the two Arlington stores we visited Friday night. It is tradition for us, whenever he is in town we go to a different Half-Price. Going to The Mothership may turn into a must-go every time he is here, which is sadly only about once a year. Pout.
Someone made and brought a Dalek! )
Busy week! No, busy past two weeks! I shall make a list! But first up are three fics that I want to give some extra love to (as well as the peoples themselves)

0.0 First up is Nick's Merlin Big Bang story. This is where you can find it:

http://cyus.livejournal.com/28557.html

Edit the Sad Parts is not 'just' a fanfiction story. It delves deeply into the journey Merlin goes through in transitioning from a confused young girl who isn't sure about what direction to take, to finding himself, both personally and in life. It is an incredibly-moving story, told in Nick's wonderful way of writing. This was a long haul, writing this fic, and wasn't easy for him at times and took a lot of whip cracking (tee hee) but I absolutely love his end result. So proud of him! Yup I am.

0.1 Okay folks, original fiction always seems like the step-child on LJ and it makes me sad, as my friend [livejournal.com profile] amand_r writes a lot of original fiction, really wonderful stuff, and she doesn't get near the comments she deserves. I helped beta this one and it is a delightful first person story, gay fiction, and you should read it or else I will cry at you. AND COMMENT, PLEASE? Seriously! I love seeing my friends stretch their wings!!! So do it!

http://amand-r.livejournal.com/568288.html?view=10709984#t10709984


0.2 Also, SPN fans out there? I want you to read this too, as my dear [livejournal.com profile] blue_fjords has written a long and wonderful SPN crime novel that makes me extremely proud of her. It has been a tough year for her with losing her beloved puppy after some tough illnesses, and getting through a health scare of her dad's. ANY SPN fan should love this as she has great characterization. I started to read this story while she was writing it long before I ever watched SPN and this story is, in major part, why I decided to go ahead and watch the show already. That fandom is HUGE so breaking in is hard but she is getting there. I am proud of you, Blue!!!!

http://blue-fjords.livejournal.com/103072.html

OKAY NOW ON TO THE ME ME ALL ABOUT ME PART:

1. School -- going very well! I've been three weeks now, and I have come to grips with the Professor's style, and what he wants from class - primarily participation, both in class and with the online discussion questions. There will be two papers but am seriously not worried--it is not a 'memorize this' class, but a 'let's discuss our current readings' class. Sometimes I feel a bit dorky as there are some seriously-perceptive people in there, but so far, ahem, MY questions end up being discussed...I am simply far better expressing myself via writing than verbally. I actually talked to the prof about that after class Thursday, when he mentioned he enjoys how I write. Told him well, I am well-used to writing, it is the getting out verbally I am having a harder time with but the atmosphere (minus that one closed-mind bitch, yo) is very forgiving of silly questions. Whew!

I will make an A in that class, dammit! *shakes fist* In other words, I am so very, very glad to be back in school. I love it.

2. Writing -- manuscript turned in, though I am still fine-tuning bits. About to send my editor a bit of an addition to a scene she asked for. I have absolutely loved working with my editor this go round. She worked super-hard on this, and I did to. THAT is how it is supposed to be! We've both had our bad periods (literally) but I think we're doing well. It *did* take lots longer for this thing to get out than I wanted, but I know the extra work.

2.1 Writing -- I will be reworking a story into a manuscript for Loose-id, starting TODAY!!!! Okay I already started, but I am excited about making this into a publishable story. Once this is turned in, I will start a new story that Nick and I came up with when I was in Plymouth. But, also, I will be working on my STAGE story--that is the one that I have entered into the Fencon Workshop, which is the last weekend of the month. Lou Anders, Hugo award-winning editor, is the workshop leader and frankly? Some of the entries make me feel really sorry for the man. Hopefully, mine will pass muster and do well. I am ready for this story now.

3. Work - Hopefully, soon I will have some news on the FINALLY front. NOT at the unnamed law firm where I've been through March. This post is getting really long though and attention spans keel over fast, so I will wait to see what will happen then share the story. :) Just think of me on Monday at 9:00 A.M.!

And now to watch Project Runway - I hear there were near fist-fights! Woo!
It just occurred to me as I was sitting here staring mindlessly out the 35th floor window at The Unnamed Law Firm where I am currently working, that it has been ages since I've done a catch-up post. It is a quiet day here with two of the three lawyers gone, the baby associate probably staring out the window as much as I am (hey it is only 100 degrees! A lovely day!), though I've been helping out another attorney whose legal assistant is gone for some reason.

Easiest way to do a recap is, recap style! So here we go!c talks a lot )

My Work Crib

May. 4th, 2011 11:10 pm
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My temporary home, but hopefully it'll work into something permanent with the firm eventually. I would not mind at all. :) In the meantime, I'll simply enjoy working somewhere where employees are treated so nicely, equally, and fairly. After what I've dealt with so far this year, I feel a bit spoiled, even after just a day and a half. LOL. And, I'm enjoying the fresh-brewed tea that is made every morning! And being downtown again, and the short commute, and the nice clothes (but not the shoes--damn my feet hurt, BAD).

This is the office I am using right now--I keep the door closed so I can listen to music. It is very solitary when behind the glass, but I don't mind that. Just have to walk outside to get some fresh tea or make the rounds, and there are peoples to chat to.

One thing that is odd for me--after 10 years of being my own boss, and sole department member, and handling my own projects, it is quite strange to work for someone else. Today I did a release and the attorney had changed some things but not others that needed changing--I dared to fix all the things, and he didn't notice. Will definitely keep an eye on that one's work. LOL. It is just WEIRD to answer to others like this again. But okay. Heck with what they are paying me, I'm definitely fine with it.

a room with a view )
Power thoughts from all please? Yes? I'll be in a phone hearing re: my unemployment benefits with That Rat Bastard who fired me. I feel confident because I know they don't have a case, but I also know that That Rat Bastard has embellished the truth. He has no real proof though that I said certain things, and the first hearing already went in my favor, so those are pluses.

Still, having to deal with this makes me freaking angry, you know? I want this settled, I want to get on with things, I kinda even want a job soon...and I want to get back to school.

NEWS THERE--I got my letter of acceptance yesterday! So I am officially a student again at UT-Arlington, to start Fall 2011. Oh whee! After Monday--everything is after Monday--I will call and get a time set up to go in and figure out what I need to take. MATHS I need a MATHS class--be prepared for me to collapse and flail! I will not take it first. I'll take it...later. Yeah. Later...

Been reading lots today about that certain NY Times article regarding epic fantasy, Game of Thrones--hello, which I adored, and last I looked I was female--and it really really makes me wonder what the heck I am getting into, pursuing this genre. I actually don't know if my fantasy would be considered 'epic' -- perhaps, perhaps just traditional fantasy, I don't know. I want to get more involved with the genre's peeps--all that 'building the name' stuff--but it is kinda hard to know how to go about it, and yeah, considering my writing 'epic fantasy' and given the realities of the epic fantasy world...it is no wonder I prefer to hang out with my writing group, who are paranormal romance and urban fantasy writers for the most part. They love me regardless of what I write. Smile. I feel safe in their circle!

At this point, just writing the damn book(s) is probably the first line of order, and what I am concentrating on. You should see my OneNote. How did I live without OneNote, I ask you? It has made organizing a breeze. Have put so so so SO much work into it so far and still haven't written a thing of actual story. Good work though, working on it some almost every day. Except for this week as I have been mental a bit, fretting about Monday... Yeah. But after Monday, I should, no WILL be getting back to it. I am almost, almost ready to start hammering out the outline--I certainly know my characters better than I ever thought I would. So that at least is good. Yes.

If not epic, what are fantasy authors like Elizabeth Hayden, Melanie Rawn, Mercedes Lackey considered? Not epic fantasy? Then...what? Am currently reading Hayden's RHAPSODY... it is right up my alley. I like it. I want to be like Haydon. LOL. But moreso, Jacqueline Carey--I have a new one of hers to read, whee! I consider her historical fantasy--sorta. But not really. More... stretched-historical fantasy...but I love her Kushiel books. Some more than others, sure, but mostly yes.

As far as fandom fun goes--been having a blast every weekend helping Nick out with the timed writings group for [livejournal.com profile] paperpushers. I am beta'ing two more peoples now for the big bang--yay!--and love both their stories and am excited to see how they progress. Also of course Nick, who is making great progress, and Jenny, who is not yet, but will. Soon. :) I love beta'ing good writers! They make ME a better writer, too. Love that! Plus I just like to see others figure out how to make themselves shine.

Anything else? Not really...finally got 90% of the money owed me by former work, and still no news yet from Loose-Id, but I do have my Carolyn Gray website all fixed up and am happy with that. Even taking a stab at actively twittering as her but it is weird... Twitter is another place I prefer my safe, cozy group of people who I know, each and every one. Quirky me, yeah.

So, wish me luck, thanks, really do appreciate it--and hopefully by 2:00 central it will be all over with and I can just relax and and and and...write. :)
I have now applied to be readmitted to UTA, I have applied to the University Studies program, I have applied for FAFSA (for son and myself). How I wish I could just go to school full-time--I'd be done by the end of the year if I could. Unemployment encourages education, but we still have to look for jobs, and it only lasts so long. DAMMIT I wish I had got my head together faster, got into school this semester. Dammit dammit dammit.

Regarding going on to get a masters in library science. Recently I've experienced some discouragement in that area, but I've decided to push past that. I don't want to work in a public school or a city library. In truth, what I want is the Masters of Arts in Library Science, due to its emphasis on research. I want to work at a university somewhere, or in some other situation where I can happily research amazing things. Specialize in an area or something. A thesis is required for the MALS, which initially made me scream and panic, but good grief, I am a writer, I love research--hello, what is wrong with me? Of course I can handle it. There is nothing else I want to do, but this. Oh and the writing thing, which is a given of course.

So many regrets in the past, but that's just part of life, I guess. At least this I can do something about, yes?
I had to add this: OMG THE UGLY HEADER IS BACK! LJ, THAT HEADER SUCKS! I HATE IT!!!!! AAAHHH!!!

It has been a busy, interesting week! Or two. So here's how things are:

State of Unemployment: Still unemployed! I got a letter from my ex-employer stating that they were appealing the decision in my favor. However, checking the dates, it looks like they are way, way past the deadline for doing so. They did that on the 7th, it is now 10 days later, and my status with TEC has not changed, no correspondence from them, nothing. I was really really angry that they added some sweet little lies into what The Rat Bastard was claiming I said and did. Pretty mind-blowing. In my next ms, there will be a character named Doran. Expect him to DIE DIE DIE a REALLY REALLY horrible death. REALLY HORRIBLE.

Otherwise, plugging along. Today I went to the Work Resources center for a mandatory orientation, and had a blast. Okay I am weird, right? But there are lots of things I can benefit from there, so next week will zip over (it is about 15 minutes from here) and take the different things. Plus, they keep track, and it looks good on record.

State of the Loose-Id: Progress! My editor needs a synopsis and some other info from me so the ms can go to the next stage. Squee! Am I excited? Yes I am excited! YOU BET I am excited! And tomorrow will be Synopsis Day. My alarm is set for 7:30 and I will be hammering out that puppy all day.

State of the Writing Part 1 (Splash Page) Thanks to the word wars on the weekend, my first draft stands at....16,103 words. Am I excited? YOU BET I AM! Sure it is a messy first draft but that is okay. I am writing the first draft fast and dirty, and just having fun with it. Working on it on weekends only.

State of the Writing Part 2 (Fantasy): I am starting to feel like a full-time writer. If I am not doing chores, talking to Nick, playing with the dogs or sleeping, or oh yeah, job hunting, I am working either on Splash Page or on this. I have three writing group meetings a week, and my writing peeps are dedicated and determined. I wish I could just do life like this forever, but alas, eventually the money will run out. Pout. But I am not bored. Oh far from it!. Anyway. This no-name fantasy that needs a name (The Beast Boy sound bad? I could call it TBB for short) is absolutely stealing my brain, my heart, my waking moments, and even stealing many of my should-be-sleeping moments and I LOVE IT. As I've explained before, my Saturday group, Warrior Writers, has a set plan for getting a novel ready for writing. As a Plotmeister, I love it. So far this is what I have:

1. Goals! yes I have them
2. Worldbuilding! Yes, I have it solidly started, using OneNote (best tool EVER! if you want ideas for how to make it work for you, I have them) to keep track of things. but as I discovered, worldbuilding takes time, is fluid, and will never end. So this is an ongoing thing.
3. Antagonist! Yes, Unser LIVES! I have never worked so hard to prepare a character, and I LOVE him. He is so evil! In all the best ways. I learned a lot remoulding him from the sketchy bits I've had sitting around all these years.
4. Protagonist! Yes, Jax lives! And so does Aneli! And I have three more! But WOW, I have never been fond of character studies, but for some reason, with the approach we take, it is working for me. If anyone is curious and would like to see, holler. Next up is Minions. Minions? Okay, I do have one in mind, and she is one wicked thing, so she will be fun to work on. So yeah. By the time I am done with all these, writing the basic outline of the story will be a piece of red velvet cupcake.
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Such a nice weekend here in North Texas--beautiful and sunny though the temps were colder, which I appreciated actually. I am not ready for winter to end here, thanks. Plus I got to spend lots of time with Nick. :) I always love that!

Okay so what did I accomplish this last week. Let me think...

C is terribly lj cut challenged )
In today's mail:

"Our investigation found your employer discharged you from your last work for a reason that is not misconduct connected with the work."

VINDICATION!!! I have WON my unemployment, YES I HAVE! I am so so SO HAPPY!!!! I am so so so pissed off and angry at B&W... LOL but am too happy to let it get to me. No way in hell would I ever want to work for people like that again. I am ecstatic!

Now I can relax a little, let the rest of this anger go, and concentrate on looking forward to good things.

YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I just want to dance with joy!!!

HA! HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!