I am a diet failure!

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I really am.  I have eaten SO WELL all week but have I lost? ANYTHING? NO.  I weighed this morning exactly what I did Sunday....   I tell you what this plateau I am on is ROCK SOLID.  If it was ten pounds less I'd be fine. LOL!!!   I know that a lot of people are into body acceptance, which I totally believe is important, but I am a stubborn sort and don't wanna just yet.  I think it is absolutely true that once you hit the 50's aka post-menopause, weight is harder to get off.  Mind you, for real, I've had no problems at all - no crankies, no hot flashes, nothing.  Just everything...stopped. Lucky me!  But yeah.

Anyway - am considering there may be other factors involved with my body's stubborn determination to keep me right here. Stress would be the big thing which I have plenty of, working as a legal assistant now.  Generally, I love my job, love the often-crazy-pace, but when it doesn't let up and I leave work with so much yet to do that I feel like I should stay late (2.5 hours overtime this week) or come in on a Saturday (um, hell no?) then, well... yeah.  

This week was insane.  I had filings in bankruptcy court - omg, talk about nuts? the rules! the things to do!  Whenever I file anything via Pacer I am always so certain I will screw up!  And then I discovered we did - but - this is the thing - it was not, is not MY job to make sure we have the right things to file. Right? I am the mere typist/filer.  Yet we totally screwed up the notice of hearing (totally fixable, btw) and I am CRUSHED.  And of course my boss says 'don't bring out the horribilizer..." he knows me well. LOL.  But yeah.  Bankruptcy filings, Northern District of Texas FW filings, filings in Dallas court, the appeals court... oh and even an administrative court...  all this week.  There is just so much to do and dear attorneys forget, often, that there is always so much to do AFTER the filings are done. They move on but I have a lot of cleanup online and hard copy-files and such-left to do.  *thunk*

I am whiney about this and yet I love it, my job is mine mine mine, I am awesome at it, my boss told me 'you saved me' - lol - yes I love that - cuz I did - cuz I am awesome....  But DAMN. STRESS!!!

So that and knee still healing and being swollen may be contributing to the problem.  Not sure. Going to keep on soldiering on though with eating 1350 calories a day because well that is a good thing, right. 

Bought a physical book today.  Karin Slaughter, CRIMINAL.   I'm getting drawn back to mystery in a big way these days....my first love, after all.  I have a lot lined up for this year but I am thinking that Fall 2013 is going to see me returning to hardcore mystery. If not before, with my new writing group.  Yeah.    *sitting here nodding*

I hate GoodReads.  Will not be back.  No I will but I am going to make myself a new one with my real name to keep track of the books I read, and keep far, far, faaaaarrr away from the m/m world there.  I miss the days where I was oblivious to readers and their opinions and esp. those who enjoy being vicious and mean.  Seems to be a thing there these days which is sad.  Oh well.  I only quit writing for two days and am back at it.  Never, ever seek out reviews.  Ever ever ever. EVER. 

I am rambling. I need to finish these sci fi edits because I want to send this in, dang it!!!

Comments

[reni-m.livejournal.com]

I know it may sound weird, but are you eating enough calories? Usually in women if you eat below 1200 a day, your body goes into starvation mode and slows down your metabolism preventing your body from losing mass.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

If you change your name on Goodreads, let me know so that I can follow you. Returning to mystery? YAY!

Also, in weight watchers we discuss the issue of plateaus a lot and it seems that the way to fight it is to not starve yourself more but to mix it up a bit. Keep the same calorie count (or points) but eat less dairy more of something else. Throw in an extra 15 minutes of walking if possible. Additional exercise seems to be the one way to get you over the hump. It doesn't have to be a lot but your body needs a jump start of something.

[dremiel.livejournal.com]

Cut yourself some slack. You are not a failure at all. You're eating better and feeling better and eventually the scale will reflect that. Relax.

<3

[criada.livejournal.com]

Patience! Remember your weight changes with your cycles. I'm currently on the weight downslope of my cycle, but fully expect to weigh the same for the next couple of weeks as my upslope is gradually neutralized by a little weight loss. That may well be what's happening to you.
Bummer about the knees. :-( I fear for my own knees, which I think may be approaching their shelf life after 30 years of walking everywhere.

Re: Weight Watchers, the people I've known who do it have indeed done well.

And ditto dremiel. Give not into despair! Maybe try making your first priority (mentally, brainhacking!) eating healthy, with weight loss as the bonus prize.

[hisfuturewife.livejournal.com]

I don't know if you like swimming but I know that it is really good for the low impact side of things. It doesn't even have to be lap swimming, water aerobics classes can really kick your ass! It is amazing that you can actually sweat in water. I was going to mention the eating enough calories thing too but someone beat me to it.

I think the most frustrating thing about dieting is that the results aren't immediate. But the only other thing that I would say (as I know hypothyroidism is a problem with some of my friends and relatives) that if you're still not seeing results in a few more weeks it may very well have to do with stress, post-menopause or something else health related.

Keep it up I am sure you will reach your goal!

[sabriel75.livejournal.com]

These feelings plague me all the time so while I feel for you, really really do in that empathetic let me give you a hug way, also, you should know that you're pretty inspiring in how you refuse to let yourself accept what most people say is inevitable.

Keep eating healthy woman! You will see change, of that I cannot doubt because I need to believe as I am no spring chicken either and have plans of becoming thinner and healthier and ready to tackle life with a "springier" step. :)

[caninepawprints.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I could handle reading reviews on the things I write. I wouldn't be able to handle the mean comments that would inevitably be there. When I type up reviews, I try to be honest about what I thought. I'm not going to like everything out there, but I try to write things in a way that won't be mean or harsh. I know a ton of people are going to like things I didn't, and vice versa. For example, I didn't like Twilight, but it wasn't because of the story. It was because of how poorly it was written. I thought New Moon was done a lot better. Each book she wrote was done better than the one before it, though I didn't like the third one in the series (due to the story this time) and thought the fourth one was good. I really like Stephanie Meyer's "The Host," which is a completely different type of writing than the Twilight series. If she hadn't put her name on it, I would've honestly thought it was written by someone else.

[fictional-one.livejournal.com]

I've lived through menopause so l'm sure you will too. Freezing anyone out of the house yet? ;^)