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I was commenting on another person's lj and I realized that I rarely say anything of importance or interest on this lj anymore. The reasons are varied--probably the biggest is how badly I was burned by Those People. But also, I just don't want to. Or need to. That is, need to.
It is not that I don't have brilliant thoughts worthy of sharing. Of course I do. (and yes I am grinning) But I seem to usually end up sharing them with N, pouring them into my writing at Seaside, or just keeping them to myself. I am going through a process currently--working through some writerly things, quietly researching and gathering information and reading and taking notes, and doing loads of thinking, contemplating, discussing things inside my head. This project is precious to me, a gathering of all that went before into a new format with a new life, and I don't want to fuck this one up as I have everything else. My track record is not very admirable, you know, despite a couple of sales. So, I simply find myself not wanting to share about it.
Oh my I put the word 'fuck' up there--does that mean I have to mark this as adult content or some such nonsense? Snort.
Anyway--just to say I am still around, but thinking. Lots. And enjoying reading fics, and writing at Seaside, which I find incredibly fun and relaxing and yes, challenging too. There are some quite good writers over there and I love how I'm being pushed every time I post, to write crisper, cleaner, better. I may not have completed Nanowrimo per se, but I *have* been writing, lots, and working hard.
It is December 1st. Nick will be here February 22nd. Just... Wow. No need to say more than that, is there.
C
It is not that I don't have brilliant thoughts worthy of sharing. Of course I do. (and yes I am grinning) But I seem to usually end up sharing them with N, pouring them into my writing at Seaside, or just keeping them to myself. I am going through a process currently--working through some writerly things, quietly researching and gathering information and reading and taking notes, and doing loads of thinking, contemplating, discussing things inside my head. This project is precious to me, a gathering of all that went before into a new format with a new life, and I don't want to fuck this one up as I have everything else. My track record is not very admirable, you know, despite a couple of sales. So, I simply find myself not wanting to share about it.
Oh my I put the word 'fuck' up there--does that mean I have to mark this as adult content or some such nonsense? Snort.
Anyway--just to say I am still around, but thinking. Lots. And enjoying reading fics, and writing at Seaside, which I find incredibly fun and relaxing and yes, challenging too. There are some quite good writers over there and I love how I'm being pushed every time I post, to write crisper, cleaner, better. I may not have completed Nanowrimo per se, but I *have* been writing, lots, and working hard.
It is December 1st. Nick will be here February 22nd. Just... Wow. No need to say more than that, is there.
C
