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So, it is official. As of today, I'll have been off Lexapro--cold turkey--for two and a half weeks. I'd become increasingly concerned with taking a drug that I didn't think I needed any longer, and had wondered if some (or all?) of the things that had been bugging me were caused by the drug.
The most common adverse events reported with LEXAPRO vs placebo (approximately 5% or greater and approximately 2X placebo) were nausea, insomnia, ejaculation disorder, somnolence, increased sweating, fatigue, decreased libido and anorgasmia.
Now, of course, there are a few on that list that definitely don't apply (insomnia, ejaculation disorder, somnolence, increased sweating....). And some that do. Meeeehhhhhh...
So.
I decided in a moment of mental strength (and being somewhat too broke to want to pay the $75 prescription fee that particular day) to stop taking it. The only side-effect of stopping taking it that I experienced was the very odd one of jaw-clenching. That seems to have subsided. It was WEIRD! I was only on 10mg a day, so that may be a factor in the success of coming off the drug, I don't know. But regardless, I am off it, and despite several mind-blowing incidents this week (the worst of which was my puppy and Shelby escaping for HOURS out of the back yard! ah) I seem to be doing fine.
I would consider my testiness with the co-workers 'helping' me on a project might've not been present had I been on the drug still, but I doubt it. I am a horrid perfectionist when it comes to my work, and am quite frustrated that the three helping(???) me just don't seem to GET IT that this project, their part, NEEDS TO GET DONE.
Had I been alone to do it, I likely would've been further ahead than the three put together. LOL.
Anyway.
The happy news is I do appear to have more energy, am less sluggish. This could be because of a few factors--coffee (I love my Tassimo!) and Nick coming in TWO WEEKS!!!!
We are going to have such an amazing time. I don't know how much time I'll have to post about what we're up to, but I promise to when I can.
Current reads: Too many to count. In fact, my inability to focus on tasks such as reading was one of the things that prompted me to seriously consider what I was doing to myself. I have started several books, finished none of them except for Inkheart. :) Currently am reading the latest GRMM with Nick, and listening to Ken Follett's THE PILLARS OF THE WORLD. It keeps me sane at work (and keeps me from growling overmuch).
I am loving PILLARS. Historical fiction makes me very happy. I have never read any Follett, just knew about him. I really liked his Foreward, wherein he talks about the process of writing the book (started it in his 20's, knew he did not have the skills yet to write this book) and the lack of reaction he got, at first. How it was the Germans (yay Germans!) who kept this book alive and out there. Too cool, that. And how he actually wrote the story--he is an outliner, to a point. Was outlining it, and started to write it while STILL outlining... Took him over 3 years, writing mostly six days a week. Yeah baby. LOVE it.
The historical fiction I am drawn to always seems to have an element of almost-fantasy to it, is harsh and dark and yes sensual to sexual. Bad things happen, people are brutal and beautiful. What is expected doesn't happen...twists and turns are tossed into our path, taking us to unexpected destinations. I prefer a story that is character-centered though. I need to be able to fall FAST for a character--give me that person to if not identify with, to be fascinated by, to love or even love to hate. I have started several books lately that while beautifully written, still fail to snag me hard, because I always search for that one (or two) amazing character to become totally enamored with. If I'm 100 or more pages into a book, and I am still wondering who that person is to me, then I find it difficult to read on.
I am going to have to buy PILLARS as I very much want to read it later, and want to reread the foreward now. I am surprised by how much I said YES! That is IT! to. LOL.
But now, I need to wash off doggie paws, and move into my bedroom. Nick is still awake and I will hear from him in a bit.
My son missed the bus again. He will now go with MOMMY to school every morning. I cannot trust him to ride the bus, I sure can't trust him with the responsibility of a car. Pity. But, his own damn fault.
The most common adverse events reported with LEXAPRO vs placebo (approximately 5% or greater and approximately 2X placebo) were nausea, insomnia, ejaculation disorder, somnolence, increased sweating, fatigue, decreased libido and anorgasmia.
Now, of course, there are a few on that list that definitely don't apply (insomnia, ejaculation disorder, somnolence, increased sweating....). And some that do. Meeeehhhhhh...
So.
I decided in a moment of mental strength (and being somewhat too broke to want to pay the $75 prescription fee that particular day) to stop taking it. The only side-effect of stopping taking it that I experienced was the very odd one of jaw-clenching. That seems to have subsided. It was WEIRD! I was only on 10mg a day, so that may be a factor in the success of coming off the drug, I don't know. But regardless, I am off it, and despite several mind-blowing incidents this week (the worst of which was my puppy and Shelby escaping for HOURS out of the back yard! ah) I seem to be doing fine.
I would consider my testiness with the co-workers 'helping' me on a project might've not been present had I been on the drug still, but I doubt it. I am a horrid perfectionist when it comes to my work, and am quite frustrated that the three helping(???) me just don't seem to GET IT that this project, their part, NEEDS TO GET DONE.
Had I been alone to do it, I likely would've been further ahead than the three put together. LOL.
Anyway.
The happy news is I do appear to have more energy, am less sluggish. This could be because of a few factors--coffee (I love my Tassimo!) and Nick coming in TWO WEEKS!!!!
We are going to have such an amazing time. I don't know how much time I'll have to post about what we're up to, but I promise to when I can.
Current reads: Too many to count. In fact, my inability to focus on tasks such as reading was one of the things that prompted me to seriously consider what I was doing to myself. I have started several books, finished none of them except for Inkheart. :) Currently am reading the latest GRMM with Nick, and listening to Ken Follett's THE PILLARS OF THE WORLD. It keeps me sane at work (and keeps me from growling overmuch).
I am loving PILLARS. Historical fiction makes me very happy. I have never read any Follett, just knew about him. I really liked his Foreward, wherein he talks about the process of writing the book (started it in his 20's, knew he did not have the skills yet to write this book) and the lack of reaction he got, at first. How it was the Germans (yay Germans!) who kept this book alive and out there. Too cool, that. And how he actually wrote the story--he is an outliner, to a point. Was outlining it, and started to write it while STILL outlining... Took him over 3 years, writing mostly six days a week. Yeah baby. LOVE it.
The historical fiction I am drawn to always seems to have an element of almost-fantasy to it, is harsh and dark and yes sensual to sexual. Bad things happen, people are brutal and beautiful. What is expected doesn't happen...twists and turns are tossed into our path, taking us to unexpected destinations. I prefer a story that is character-centered though. I need to be able to fall FAST for a character--give me that person to if not identify with, to be fascinated by, to love or even love to hate. I have started several books lately that while beautifully written, still fail to snag me hard, because I always search for that one (or two) amazing character to become totally enamored with. If I'm 100 or more pages into a book, and I am still wondering who that person is to me, then I find it difficult to read on.
I am going to have to buy PILLARS as I very much want to read it later, and want to reread the foreward now. I am surprised by how much I said YES! That is IT! to. LOL.
But now, I need to wash off doggie paws, and move into my bedroom. Nick is still awake and I will hear from him in a bit.
My son missed the bus again. He will now go with MOMMY to school every morning. I cannot trust him to ride the bus, I sure can't trust him with the responsibility of a car. Pity. But, his own damn fault.
