Making Friends

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I gotta figure out how to find some like-minded people to do things with. I have my friend Judy who knows all about me and Nick, and my friends Allan and Leigh Ann, but they are individual friends. And Allan has a girlfriend now, so we never do anything anymore.

Once Tiff is in school at OU I'll be able to go back to the writing groups, and I look forward to that but I need friends to DO stuff with. To say hey, want breakfast? Meet me at _________. Or how about a movie _______. All that stuff.

I lead a very solitary life. My number one choice of course would be to have Nicholas here with me and I'd be very content, you bet. But I don't have him here, and all my friends are elsewhere...or too far away to meet with often. Or have 4 year old kids, or girlfriends or boyfriends...

Dammit, I'm a cool person. I'm friendly. I am pretty interesting. But I live in a city that is big, that I've lived in all my life, and I might as well be new here, as few people I know.

I think 'there's got to be others out there in FW with my views who are thinking the same things I am thinking.' Surely there are!

Life would be so sweet if we had transporter devices. Then I could visit everyone on my flist just any ol' time. Have breakfast in Germany with my baby and lunch with Po or Leafy_ and dinner with Luna or Ammy...and bebop to wherever Anthony happened to be.

With all that is happening at work, thanks to our admin and her destruction of the happy unit we all once were, work is lonely now, too.

Damn.

And daughter is leaving...

Yeah.

Maybe I should start a writer's group of my own. Must be either gay or write gay fiction. Or like to read it. That would be an interesting group and would keep the hard-core Christians away (no offense to any on my flist who are, though I doubt I have any on here, but I deal with the holier-than-thou attitudes all the time here in FW and I am sick of it).

I could join a Husky club... Woof woof...

I dunno. I just get tired of being so solo, sometimes. It's because my other half isn't here though, that I feel so hollow. I see couples and feel so jealous, it is ridiculous.

Such a whiney post, Carolyn...

My big problem is I like being around and with others only part of the time. I really do need my alone time (though alone-with-Nick time is beautiful, cuz he understands that need). So that makes me a bit of a pest because there is no predictor of when I like to be with people. Sometimes, alot of times, I just don't. Go Away People!

I am just weird I guess.

But happy, that my kids love me, accept me and Nick, and that Nick looovvesss me. And I'll be seeing him again very very soon. For Six Weeks! SQUEE!!!!

I can't wait. I want to just do the little things, like go to the store, do the check out together (he hates when I do self-service checkout--lol). Cook dinner and clean and stuff...all with my Nick. I've never been with someone who is so easy to be with. Seriously. He is just so... he calms me. Yeah.

Been working on Jax tonight, doing a little character work. I'm having fun utilizing this Writer's Dreamkit thingy from Dramaticapro. It is helping me organize and I can use that!

I suppose I will go to bed now. Yawn--am tired. And obviously whiney.

But seriously. I am tired of not having friends, here, at my beck and call. Really.

C

Comments

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

Not weird. I wish I could be there to do stuff with you. *sigh*
Starting your own writer's group would be the best.
Do you know of anyplace where like minded people congregate? You might meet someone there.
Or you could try Yahoo personals like Anthony. I know you're not looking to meet anyone as a partner, but you might find someone who is just looking for someone to do things with. :)

*Hugs*

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I thought about that. Oh my. I should talk to Anthony. :)

Of course, if he'd move here that would be fun too... LOL!

All you cool people live Far far away. Sniff.

Am sick today and it sucks. Did you get my email about that song you sent to me? OH MY GOD it was HORRIBLE!! I am so sad!! What is he THINKING???????

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

All I heard was you didn't like the part about a president dropping the bomb. I think Step Into the Light, Ocean and Who Would Have Thought are good. On the Verge is okay and I don't care for any of the others yet. :P

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

there was another one you sent and he does it in this stupidvoice. It was horrid

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

Ah yeah. Christine called it Darren doing his chipmunk impersonation. I didn't listen to that either. :P

I've got a few more I could send you... :P

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

I wished you lived near me so we could hang! I've lived in this burb for 12 years and I've never clicked with anyone. Sometimes it's like I moved in last week, I feel that isolated. When the youngest kidlet is out of high school we are moving.

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

That would be so lovely. Where do you live? I love Fort Worth, really do, but it got less fun when my best friend moved away. Sucks.

My friend Judy shares a car with her sister so playing with her is a rare treat.

I watch my daughter and her closest friends, "three girls, a guy and a gay asian," and hope they do what they vow to, stay friends ForEver. LOL. My long-time friend went and had a baby at 40, so she can never go anywhere either.

So, I rock along solo, always happy though that Nick is able to call alot. :) Even though he hates to talk to me when I am shopping. LOL.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

In Northern California, so it's a stretch. But if you're in the neighborhood....

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

Oh man...it would take a few days but... Yeah.

[cruentum.livejournal.com]

We could visit you when I am in the states next Feb. :P I do fancy a roadtrip.

[pir8fancier.livejournal.com]

YEAH!

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

Hmm baby, you are talking days of driving. LOL.

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

Hey pir8, can you email me at cparagraphs@googlemail.com? Nick and I wanna ask you about San Francisco. We are going to buy our tickets pretty soon and are very serious about wanting to meet you. It would be sometime in March '08.

C

[talekyn.livejournal.com]

I'd gladly be at your beck. Or call. Or both.

I very much relate to the solitary problem. I have my work acquaintances, but after the bad ending at the former employers, I am not eager to turn work acquaintances into deeper friendships. I have my close friends -- but they're all a reasonably driving distance away. Even the closest ones geographically are hard to coordinate with because they have kids and houses and so on. And I love the kids, but I'd like to have just-adults time.

So I'm right there with ya, C!

But I'm so glad Nick is coming to spend so much time with you. That is a wonderful thing.

[http://users.livejournal.com/lindalee_/]

Ok, so this is an old post! But... I had a comment, so I thought I would ;-)

Have you tried meetup.com? It's a pretty good place to meet people, from what I can tell. I use it for the writing group now, and I'm a member of a bunch of meetup groups. There are all kinds of dog enthusiast groups on there, and there really seems to be a group for everything.

Hey, you could start a writing group on there (I'll warn you-- it IS expensive to be an organizer there, at $144/year-- but members will help you offset that cost) and specify gay-friendly. Here is our writing group's page as an example... http://writers.meetup.com/749/

I wish you and I lived closer... I'd LOVE to hang with you! Which is not to say that we can't ever hang. I don't mind a drive once in a while. ;-)

I have really missed you! I thought you dropped off the face of the earth... I didn't know you had a new journal. I really like this one-- the layout is cool... similar to the one I chose (uses the same main photo anyway).

Anyway-- glad to see that your life is so good... and filled with many more pooches!! :D They are precious. Give N extra huggles & kisses, k? How exciting that you guys are going strong!