Cars Depress Me, and Writing Stuff

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I hate cars. I really do. They are expensive to run, maintain and with a teenage son, insure. My daughter has just about completely taken over the responsibility of her car, but that doesn't lessen my worry and responsibility (making sure she gets the oil etc. changed, takes care of the tires, etc.). And now I have to add another, for my son. He will be helping--has no choice there--but the bottom line is we need to get him a car, which makes THREE cars I have to fret over.

My credit is 'good' but low-good, should be able to snag a loan easily enough. But, loan on his car means full coverage, which means higher premiums. Alternative is to give him my car, but uh, I don't think so. I don't want ANYONE to drive my car ever again. Something always happens to it! It is banged up right now because of his fender bender that only hurt my car, not the other guy's. Sigh.

So, onward I must go to find a car for no more than 5k, that doesn't have a trillion miles on it, that won't break down completely before it is paid off, and won't saddle me with a huge payment. I can afford around 150 tops, so of course anything I find will be more than that.

I wish I could win one, or someone would just say HEY! I got a spare, take mine! (dreaming).

I hate cars.

Been down alot lately--not sure why, probably mostly the single-parent, I-can't-do-enough thing. The post-seeing-Nick thing. I'll deal, no choice yes? Trying to shake it all off though it isn't that easy. But at least I am writing again! I've got three big writing projects going, and will start keeping track of the word counts soon. One of them is my Loose-Id fic. Yeah, remember I quit working on it? Well, I am back to it again, at least considering it. I'd written myself into a wall, so it was easy to walk away. I think the answer though is to work out an outline, a map to lead me to the end. I have that for the other two projects, and it does help alot. Just printed it out and will zip through it and see what I can do with it to the end. It would be very helpful to have a sale this summer!

Have a writer's group meeting tomorrow, and our bi-weekly one Wednesday. First meeting of that went off great, even though we ended up talking three hours to a Narcotics officer from Florida--one of our members is a local Narcotics cop herself, so it was a crazy three-hour discussion, whoa. That dude could tell a story, and he told A BUNCH. We were captive, but happily so. Quite a character.

I have not worked at all today, btw. Just haven't felt like it. I think I will keep on with this bad attitude this afternoon and plunk down an outline. :)

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[bodlon.livejournal.com]

I couldn't afford the property tax or to have it inspected, so I effectively garaged it for several months. However, garaging in this case was 'parked it and did not drive it.'

Anyway, somebody apparently noticed that we had unlicensed vehicles on the property (my car, ex-boyf's truck) and we got a notice saying to either store them appropriately or license them.

I'd just got my tax refund, so I licensed mine. Ex-boyf's got his truck crammed into the garage.

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This is the first time I've seen you refer to him like this. Hugs to you... Damn, I'm behind on your life!

Don't you just LOVE people for turning you guys in? Geesh. Thanks neighbor.

I am watching GRIDLOCK. I was startled to realize that the girl who kidnapped Martha into the car, is the actress who plays Annie on BH? Whoa. Crazy...

[bodlon.livejournal.com]

I joke sometimes that I like Being Human because it's secretly Doctor Who/Torchwood. There's a lot of crossover in terms of cast and crew.

J and I split up in mid-March. He's still around and will be at least until he graduates. It's weird, and I genuinely think he'd checked out and assumed I had too by the time that conversation happened, so awkwardness abounds! Plus, you know, seven years + 1 day? Yeah. It's a thing.

And eh. It needed doing. Sometimes a crappy neighbor can be impetus to do all manner of useful things!

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Ahh around when Nick and I were gearing up for our trip. My head was elsewhere. I think I am grounded now (and very glad it isn't us stuck in the UK right now!).

LOL yeah, sometimes it is a thing. Well, I know it can't be easy, but damn, you deserve genuine loving. Just do. I hope you find it someday.

How's your mom? (now that i have you cornered...)

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Not too bad. Most of her health challenges are well-controlled at the moment. Her arthritis is a real challenge, though. She's in a lot of pain, doesn't move well, is having trouble with her hands. I think they're talking about cortisone shots or something to that effect.

She's still not doing dialysis, which is kind of scary to me, but its her choice to accept or eschew certain treatments. So.