NANOWRIMO

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I am Tatteredleaf on Nano. I've added a few of you lot, but would happily add more. Now that I have two ML's behind me, snapping their whips--and both are scarily prolific--I am optimistic that this Nano will be a wild one. LOL. And successful.

For me, that means 25k. If my hands agree to let me go further than that, then we will do so.

I'm definitely more ready for this one than any other one I've semi-attempted. More later on that.

More importantly--thank you everyone for all your comments and emails regarding my situation at work. A huge, terrible disappointment, that's for sure. My now-former-boss is doing fine, has some good leads, and hopefully all will be even better for him. I hope so, he deserves it.

That leaves me, and my extreme disappointment with this company. I can't stay there anymore. I will for awhile, as I can't just run off and quit--I have too many responsibilities for that--but I can start thinking seriously about my game plan. Lots to think about, but now that my last hold on this city is gone, there is a strange sense of freedom that I like. I don't have to stay here, not really, unless I want to. Right now I do, and I can deal with the situation at work without getting hurt, I am pretty sure. But I will also get my resume ready, put some feelers out to the Railroad to people I know there, and if something comes of that, will go for it. I hate to give up the railroad life after so many years, but maybe I am meant to. Who knows?

But thank you all, your thoughts, growls, encouragements...man, you all are awesome. I am crushed and sad. Sigh.

ANYWAY! Onward now, Nano looms, there are other books to finish and finish rewriting, and a special project I'll be a part of later. Much, much good to come.

Comments

[amproof.livejournal.com]

Instead of letting your responsibilities be the reason you don't quit, start adjusting yourself to thinking about not having them anymore and focus on looking for new jobs. Soon this one isn't going to have a hold on you anymore. It will be weird. A few nights ago, I dreamed that I had a major task to do for my old job! Then I remembered it was over and relaxed.

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It already has lost its hold. It is strange, there is a freedom now as I head there...as long as Chris was there, I was firmly tied to my future there. Now, with him gone, poof goes that loyalty.

I guess I am grateful for those happy years there...good times were had, and I got to experience that kind of job that feels like family. I want that again, but know it isn't anything that happens easily.

If I decide to just go ahead and stay there for a couple more years, which is a good possibility, as I wait for my two to get themselves established (esp. the youngest), I know I can deal with it. I think also I should use that time a bit more wisely--go back to school? Or serious writing. You know what I prefer between the two!

[amproof.livejournal.com]

I used to tell M.R. that if he left, I would not want to stay. He's still there and I'm gone, but sounds like your anchor left, so now you can go!

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I always told Chris if he ever left I was out of there. And though I am there physically for the time being, yeah, my heart, she is gone.

Chris is sarcastic and attitudy and moody, but damit, dammit dammit DAMMIT I loved working for him. He's also funny as hell and we get along crazily well, bantering back and forth. He is the reason I took that job and now, they killed him off and expect me to be happy about it. Can you believe it? AS IF!

He left me alone to do my job and trusted me to do so. :*(

Allan...who is my team leader...he does leave me alone, but for different reasons. He is an interesting case. This post is closed, right? Good. Anyway...I should talk in email about this, not here. LOL.