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There is nothing like losing a once-beloved job to bring one to one's knees, is there? Add in a pesky stomach virus that was determined to hang hard for 5-6 days, and it is a sure-fire recipe for hitting rock-bottom. This last week sucked, sucked so hard. Pretty much from Sunday to Friday morning, I wallowed, and wailed, and whined, and was just horribly miserable. Not fit company at all. I've avoided lj for that reason, except for lurking about. Mostly I just watched shows on my computer, and read on my new Kindle (which I adore). And cried. And hid. (see why I stayed away?)

People found me anyway, cheering me up so much with emails, calls, tweets, pressies, advice, hugs, love, encouragement, doses of sympathy, understanding and, sigh, commiseration. Oh man. Thank you so much guys. You are all helping me through.

Knowing that that office is now all but empty is a small comfort. At least I was there during the golden days, and I don't miss what is left. Oh no way, not at all. They'll have hell rebuilding that office again, if they even mean to. I fancy that they won't, now. They'll never get people willing to work for what they want to pay. Not in the GIS field. Har.

Still, man, it sucks! Mornings are worst--I should be up, going to work, making the money. But am not. At least not yet. I've signed up to work temp--that could be helpful in finding a job, and at least keeping me from moping around the house! I am not good at this at-home thing, not when Responsibilities are weighing heavy on my head. I'm okay for awhile, but I really rather not spend what I've got, you know? I'd much rather save it, and spend a wee bit going to see Nick (who, this time next week, will be in the UK for at least the next three years--whee!). So, yeah.

So am trying to shake it off. Shake off the freak-outs, shake off the OMG's, believe that I will get something that will pay the bills until I can finish my schooling goals.

AND WHAT ARE THOSE? Finish my degree. I went to UTA and talked to the folks there and they have just the degree for me--BA in University Studies. Not the fanciest degree name, but I'll take it. I'm probably around 7 or so classes from being able to snag that puppy. I missed the chance to take a class this semester, very unfortunately, but I'll get started this summer. After I get that, I'll move forward with the next step. First things first though.

My daughter brought me a cookie! And Shelby just about snatched it from me, the varmint. Sneaking from under my desk drawer-tray, the wench. I saved it from her though, go me!



So, if anyone has any job suggestions, holler...part of me wouldn't mind just working temp and/or freelance until the fall and then being a full-time student, get the rest of my classes done then. That would be sweet! But...who knows if that can work out. Would be nice though! I am determined to look at things more positively now. I am tired of being miserable!

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blue-fjords.livejournal.com
I'm glad you're feeling better now -- things WILL look up! THEY WILL! And you have a black-and-white -- which reminds me that I have one in the freezer from [livejournal.com profile] amand_r. Saving it for a rainy day. I ate all the others.

You know, C, it's been awhile. I think I need to send you something that will bring a surefire grin to your face:

Image (http://s245.photobucket.com/albums/gg51/fossoway/?action=view&current=pinkunicornboy.jpg)

:D

And a bonus, since you're going to watch "Empire" this weekend:

Image (http://s245.photobucket.com/albums/gg51/fossoway/?action=view&current=Empire-Star-Wars-set_400.jpg)

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
Oh Blue, did you really do that to me? GROAN. LOL I showed, uh, that to my daughter. She shakes her head...

I just finished watching Empire Strikes Back! Now to watch the last one! Oh Hans! Princess Leia says it like 'hands'.

I am tired. Been cleaning tons of things. I am tired of cleaning. Maybe think about thinking about possibly considering writing. Think?

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] klgrem.livejournal.com
Since Bob hasn't found work in almost a year, I'm not sure I could tell you anything that would help. Just keep applying anywhere and everywhere.
Wish you all the luck in the world!

*Hugs* ♥

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Date: 2011-01-23 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
oh man you would think a nice kid fresh out of the Army would be snapped up somewhere. :*(

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Date: 2011-01-23 12:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] klgrem.livejournal.com
He actually had one place tell him they couldn't hire him because he wasn't a minority.
You won't have that problem. ;)

He did finally start his Basic Law Enforcement Training class, and I'm doing my best to get him to finally take his mechanics' certification class that he needs.
And as much other college as he is interested in, as long as his G.I.Bill lasts.

Good luck!

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
BLACK AND WHITE!

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
BLACK AND PINK! (for Valentine's Day!)

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
NICE. MAYBE YOU SHOULD BAKE WHILST YOU ARE TRYING TO KEEP BUSY!.

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
Spider makes me want to bake bread. I can make that easy bread...that's a thought. Her bread-making skills make me faint! LOL.

But then I would eat it if I made it, and that would probably not be good. Dang it. ARGH.

Hmm.

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
I suck at making bread.

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
I swear, reading her instructions make me whimper.

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Date: 2011-01-22 11:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amand-r.livejournal.com
I actually....I mean, she's awesome, but I don't eat massive bread, so it would moulder here.

WE EAT EGG CUSTARD.

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Date: 2011-01-23 12:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
See? That sounds good. Right now I am oddly craving stir-fry. I already indulged in pasta today though! Maybe tomorrow. I love bread like crazy and would just love some right now. That is why I don't bake it! I would eat it all. At once.

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Date: 2011-01-23 12:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
I love rice pudding and have never had it from-scratch. Srsly.

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Date: 2011-01-23 12:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] klgrem.livejournal.com
Keep it in the freezer. Then you can't eat it all at once. ;)

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Date: 2011-01-23 12:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] klgrem.livejournal.com
Home made is better for you than store bought. You know what you put in it. ;)

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Date: 2011-01-23 12:51 am (UTC)
used_songs: (Jane Russell peeking)
From: [personal profile] used_songs
That's one heck of a cookie! And shiny!I can see why Shelby was tempted.

As for the other - *HUGS* I wish I could help you. You're such a good person, and you deserve wonderful things.

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Date: 2011-01-23 01:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
aww thanks, am hanging in there. I am determined to make this all work out to be better than it was. I *was* unhappy there, no denying that. So time to make it good, yeah?

And yeah, shiny!

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Date: 2011-01-23 10:30 am (UTC)
ext_12726: (December)
From: [identity profile] heleninwales.livejournal.com
It's sad when a job you love goes bad, isn't it? That happened to me with my first teaching/training job. :(

You have lots of useful skills, so I hope you find something soon. I know from experience just how quickly the novelty of being at home full time wears off. I mean, there are big advantages with working part-time from home, but I do miss having work colleagues and daily change of scene.

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Date: 2011-01-23 06:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
Very sad, though it makes coping with it all easier. Still, I just want to get something soon. Fast. Like this week would be nice?

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Date: 2011-01-23 01:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
Thanks! I just ate that cookie and it was fabulous. No, did not share with Shelby. Yes, she is sad!!!

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Date: 2011-01-23 02:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] misswinterhill.livejournal.com
::snuggles:: I'm sorry I haven't been around much, but I hope I was able to distract you a bit. :)

ETA: also, Ella_Bane has a Merlin friending meme, which Nick has probably told you about anyway, but if you want more Merlin friends...
Edited Date: 2011-01-23 02:44 am (UTC)

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Date: 2011-01-23 03:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
Oh you did! And I am grateful for it. LOL.

Oh my gosh though imagine what I would say:

Ships: Uh, none? I like any pairing, yeah?
Fav eps? Oh I like them all! They're just pure fun!
Fav characters; Merlin, Arthur, Morgana, Guin, Elyan, Gaius, Uther...etc. etc. LOL. And so on.

I am afraid I would be viewed as so boring that no one would want me. I'm cool though, whatever friends I pick up in the future is fine, or not. I let Nick do the shining, and the ones who trickle down to me are usually the most awesome. :)

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Date: 2011-01-23 03:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] misswinterhill.livejournal.com
C, I don't actually even know how we met. I seriously don't. It's just like you've always been there. Because I'm SURE I knew you before WIAD, but I don't know.

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Date: 2011-01-23 03:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
LOL! Well it was definitely somehow via torchwood. I am not sure! you were just... there! That is a good thing, I think. :) Slot was waiting for you. LOL.

I have yet to make any new Merlin friends but that is okay. I'm pretty content with things right now as they are. The ones that Nick is getting to know, they'll learn about me eventually. LOL!

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Date: 2011-01-23 03:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] humming-along.livejournal.com
I had thought you were going back to last old company in contracts? Sigh. I should learn to read more closely, obviously. I'm sorry you're having to deal with job hunting, and hope you find something amazing.

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Date: 2011-01-23 03:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paragraphs.livejournal.com
I was, but it didn't work out. Hiring freeze for rest of the quarter! It was for another contractor, so alas, yeah. So am at home, dealing and coping and determined not to let worries get me. Staying busy is the key, and I am going to make myself get back to writing again. :)

Thank you--I just want to work someplace with a heart. My old job lacked that. I want to make a difference to people somehow. Fixing incorrect road crossing data as I was doing was incredibly unfulfilling, to say the least.

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Date: 2011-01-23 06:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] talekyn.livejournal.com
I have no job suggestions since you don't want to move to NJ (haha). But I did want to send long-distance hugs and love. Someone WILL snatch you up soon.

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Date: 2011-01-23 10:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kel-reiley.livejournal.com
*hugs* i didn't know you were still feeling poorly :(

look! i posted this just to cheer you up! (http://community.livejournal.com/kelxtravaganza/27976.html) (or, uh, it was really good timing?)

MMM COOKIES! feel better soon, C, for you are much beloved around here

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Date: 2011-01-23 05:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] candesgirl.livejournal.com
*hugs for you*

You'll get through this, good things come to good people and you, darling, are good people :)