Sunday Sunday... Lazy lazy Sunday, sorta

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I have discovered an evil wasps nest high up in my porch roof - must get super-shot spray to knock those suckers dead.

Am about to make Blue's cupcake recipe. This is from when I made the recipe before but made them into whoopie pies. Aren't they gorgeous? Whoopie Pies!

I have to dash to the store to get a couple of ingredients, but figured that would be a nice way to spend the afternoon and get my mind focused on my science fiction story. Now that I've had a friend rip through it, and have gone through all her comments (with not a little moaning and groaning lol), I've got a set gameplan to rewrite it. Got some things to figure out that I didn't have time to (or room to!) as I wrote it for submission - lessons learned! But, no regrets on that at all, deciding then writing a 35k story of a type I never have before for submission six weeks before the deadline... heck no. LOL. Got a solid basis for expanding into a full story now, and have decided I rather like Scrivener, and am using that to organize and rewrite.

It occurred to me today that I have been spending a lot of the weekend focusing not on writing, but on letting go. Letting go of fear, anxiety, worry (ok not so good at that, yeah), letting go of certain expectations (some positive, some not, some pretty tough), and accepting, finally, certain things. Cryptic much? Yeah, but I hope by doing so I will be less stressed, less worried, stop gritting my teeth, bah, less sure my life will crash yet again. I have to believe that it won't, that I am in a good position to take care of myself and my family, for real.

It isn't easy, at all, to let that fear and worry go. Deep breath. I am working to make it happen though. Forced positive thinking, yeah.

The last week at work was amazing and challenging and crazy and fulfilling all at once. And full of adventure! Last Tuesday was my 3-month anniversary, and I'm now permanent. (As if there was any doubt, Pam said, but I sure doubted! how could I not after everything that had happened before?). My boss left Saturday for two weeks at Philmont, a 2-week trek with the Boy Scouts, same one dremiel's son and husband are on. So we commiserated the pre-trip insanity. Lots of that, trying to get everything done, but wow when one of our clients went crazy-nuts on my boss Friday and cops had to be called? Well. That took the cake. Ended up staying until 7:40 Friday night but we got everything done that needed to be done, if not sent out (thanks to crazy lady). So, I have a lot to do in the morning, to get all that work out but after that? Surely the week will stay calm...surely.... LOL.

Fun times.

Okay, so. Off to the store.

Comments

[sabriel75.livejournal.com]

Letting go's hard! So glad to hear that you're coming through and with flying colors. Not surprised at all that they're keeping you permanently. You work hard and you're very loyal, among a litany of other good qualities.

Let us know how the cupcakes turned out. I keep meaning to make those whoopie pies. Maybe when my mother visits. She adores experimenting in the kitchen.

[disco-mouse.livejournal.com]

Congratulations on being permanent, or rather, having a permanent paycheck for as long as you want one.

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Oh my gosh you need this recipe! it is vegan but you would never know it. It is fun to make - soy milk, vegan cream cheese, etc. RED RED EVERYWHERE!!!

And thanks bb - following after two pretty disastrous people in a row seems to have helped. I am respectful too to the head honcho lawyer - Karen, my boss's wife. LOL!!! She likes me, gave me a huge hug, so victory! But, I've made some stupid mistakes that had me all worried though my boss said I needed to 'turn off my horribilizer' which he views as an easy bake oven. LOL!!! Love it.

So, no more freakouts, no no no. Not from me!!! (at least for now)

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I want one! Very much. LOL. Thanks mouse!!!

[sabriel75.livejournal.com]

Freakouts are fine! Humans do this many times, especially mothers. Cut yourself some slack. You've made some huge changes over the past few years.

Also, yes, I need this recipe.

Where do you get vegan cream cheese? And what brand do you use?