Husky Love

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Oh my, we picked Tiffany up at the airport and took Maddox and he got so much attention and pets he was overwhelmed and fell asleep on Tiff while we waited for her baggage. Poor little guy!!!



In the Happy News department, Nick has a new home, YES! Well, papers to be signed Monday, but he won't be homeless and the new flat is absolutely beautiful. And, he got his internship, so that definitely means that come February, Nick will be hopping on that big beautiful Lufthansa plane and zooming his way here for his first visit to the U.S. I cannot WAIT to show him how life is here, as I so enjoy exploring the German culture there. The only bad thing is I will have to work every day, except for the week I take off for our road trip to my sister's and hopefully humming_along's new digs. I am so worried he will get bored, stuck here with three dogs, the house, and waiting on me.

It will be SO nice to come home to a good German meal every night... whee! LOL. (Nick is a really good cook and I can't wait to load him up in the car and go to the German Deli and buy all the proper mixes and ingredients he'll need).

I was bored and lonely at home tonight, even the puppy was asleep, so I put him in the crate and went to B&N for an hour or so. I haven't been in there in quite awhile and it was quite nice and fun. Got a vanilla latte (S/F F/F) and browsed and chatted to people and the guy who made my coffee for me sang The Snicker's Song (???) to me. LOL. Flirty much? Too funny. I looked at the non-fiction table, and the calendars as we don't have a 2007 and it has been driving me nuts--got an August 07 to December 08 Butterfly calendar. Absolutely gorgeous. Now *I* can start marking off the days to Nick's visit. Whee!!!!

How odd, I had a thought and it disappeared out of my head.

So, that means, I must of course now go to bed!

Nite all!


Carolyn

Comments

Re: Congrats to Nick!

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I actually read it last night before I went to bed, the one phrase that really caught my eye was 'incurable, not terminal.' Saying that over and over again is a really good thing--POUND it into their heads because it is a message I think that is hard to let through, what with all the fear that naturally comes with having Stage IV.

I will go zoom back over in a bit but that really played over and over in my mind.

Another reason I am glad you are doing this book is that I for one have not personally known anyone with cancer at this stage--it has to me the potential to reassure the friends and family, too, that their friend/family member with cancer does NOT have to give up the fight, no matter how long that fight lasts. Seriously, that is also a very good thing. I've wondered if getting some of R's perspective wouldn't be interesting. He too has chosen life--yours. That makes him appear a prince in my (and probably others') eyes, but I wonder if he is just the kind of guy who thinks "Hey, I love Karen, so of course I'm here." Talk about a selfless love. (squee!)

Oh man you are definitely waaaayyy far away. LOL. We won't be headed that direction! Although dammit I'd love to meet you and Anthony and R and just sit around and talk writing and drink Miso soup. :)

Re: another book

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Yes, I definately want to write "Stage IV Cancer: Incurable is NOT Terminal", and now you've given me the best reason! One of the comments I got in the breast cancer community said that all her friends treat her like a ghost, as if it's just a matter of time before they're attending her funeral... It's about people not wanting to face THEIR OWN mortality, so they will dump someone with that shadow of death in order to stay in denial about how short life can really be. I've been so lucky in that dept; I've inspired folks to grab onto life & stop waiting for the "right time" to make a necessary change...The office manager at my old job gave notice last week & is going into public speaking, which she's great at, but didn't know until work asked her to attend toastmasters to network for the business (we have folks in Kiwanis, Rotary, Chamber of Commerce & stuff like that; need an insurance agent, hey there's that guy from Rotary...)

I'd been thinking that my personal story might be an easier sell to a major publisher than the spirituality book; each perspective is unique, and there need to be LOTS more stories of hope for Stage IV's.

Hmmmm, maybe I could do that "Stories of Hope; Stage IV Breast Cancer Survivors. Then I could include other women's stories and get THEM royalties!!!!

*sniffle* This disease is SUCH a financial burden on so many women & families, if I could do something like that.... Do you think that's possible? If so, I want to write that one first, and put the other books on hold (well, not completely, 'cuz the pagan book should write itself fairly easily; my gods are kinda adamant about that one, but it's got a limited audience) I wanna reach the masses (and let's face it, get an advance from a publishing company so I can live comfortably)

Never hurts to dream big, right?

Re: another book

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You should look into it now. Non-fiction is different than fiction in how it is handled and I don't know that much about it.

Honestly, when my grandmother was sick with lung cancer, it terrified me, didn't know how to handle it. Oddly I was in the hospital the same time she was, and I MADE myself go down and see her. She was in very bad shape by then, and didn't know I was there, but just sitting with her made me feel better. I was 20 and had just beat back blood poisoning (caused by the stupidest thing--my fish tank!) and that made me think, at least briefly, about things.

With Kel's illness, it wasn't an obvious one, no one knew how serious it was except him and me. But he also lived in heavy denial most of the time and refused to talk about it. I didn't push it, either, thinking I was right not to, and... Oh man, I wish I had done alot differently.

Always dream big.

Re: Russ

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He is truly amazing; he moved out here knowing I was Stage IV & *could* be terminal at some point. That was the first time in my life that I actually believed someone truly loved me; I always had doubt/self-worth/self-loathing issues in all my other relationships. But that one thing was the closest I'd ever been to unconditional love in my life (except maybe my mom, ya know?)

Yes, we've had fights, past relationship issues & triggers to work through, and we NEVER expected to have to deal with a disability, just a deathbed vigil, really (I know it's morbid, but you gotta be realistic...)

So yah, including family & friend's perspectives would be a must as well...

Re: Russ

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Greatness. Yeah, Russ is pretty amazing (he's not on my lj so we can talk about him).

I think talking about the morbid makes it less morbid. Takes the mystery out of it or something.