Am I ready for this? No, not really.

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My son has the opportunity to move out first of May.  My daughter is not coming home for the summer. I am sooner-than-expected going to be living alone, just me and the dogs and the fish tanks upstairs.

Proud of my kids for the people they are becoming, but also? Kinda want to cry.

Nope, not ready for this at all.

At least I am in better shape mentally than I used to be. I've got a lot of local friends now, and do things in the evenings now and then, and on weekends, now and then.  I used to know no one or do anything outside of work, my entire social life being on the internet.  That's not the case anymore though I am often nostalgic for how things used to be.  I'm both happier than I have been in the past but sad too because of what is no longer.  That's life though I guess, isn't it?

How does one live alone?  I haven't in...  Ever.

Not ready for this at all.

Comments

[sabriel75.livejournal.com]

It's awesome to hear your kiddos finding their own place in the world, but scary for me too given I've no idea when and what my daughter will do once she starts making decisions like these without my input. If she ever does, but still, scary to see them grow up when you can remember them as babies and toddlers and hormonal.

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this house is just too big! I never thought I would be THAT parent but I think being a single parent adds a layer to it all. Either that or the fact I like my son. LOL. Except for the dirty dishes....

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The single parent aspect definitely adds a layer of lonely to the empty house syndrome. Even when my daughter would go away for visitation, it felt too quiet for me and I do adore my "alone" time.

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I am starting to thing of the advantages - no dirty dishes suddenly mysteriously appearing, half the laundry (ha I bet he brings it home)... and, and! I can recapture the loft again and turn it into my writing space. That will be awesome. :)