Will I Ever Write a Decent Post Again?

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I was commenting on another person's lj and I realized that I rarely say anything of importance or interest on this lj anymore. The reasons are varied--probably the biggest is how badly I was burned by Those People. But also, I just don't want to. Or need to. That is, need to.

It is not that I don't have brilliant thoughts worthy of sharing. Of course I do. (and yes I am grinning) But I seem to usually end up sharing them with N, pouring them into my writing at Seaside, or just keeping them to myself. I am going through a process currently--working through some writerly things, quietly researching and gathering information and reading and taking notes, and doing loads of thinking, contemplating, discussing things inside my head. This project is precious to me, a gathering of all that went before into a new format with a new life, and I don't want to fuck this one up as I have everything else. My track record is not very admirable, you know, despite a couple of sales. So, I simply find myself not wanting to share about it.

Oh my I put the word 'fuck' up there--does that mean I have to mark this as adult content or some such nonsense? Snort.

Anyway--just to say I am still around, but thinking. Lots. And enjoying reading fics, and writing at Seaside, which I find incredibly fun and relaxing and yes, challenging too. There are some quite good writers over there and I love how I'm being pushed every time I post, to write crisper, cleaner, better. I may not have completed Nanowrimo per se, but I *have* been writing, lots, and working hard.

It is December 1st. Nick will be here February 22nd. Just... Wow. No need to say more than that, is there.

C

Comments

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

Haha. Well, I think any post can be important. And I don't expect you to share everything. Most of us don't.

Just the occasional 'I'm doing fine' is nice.
And I think that is important too. :)

*hugs*

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

Well, I am doing fine! I will tell you what I am up to--I am listening to the most recent GRRM, and am in heavy worship mode. I just bought both volumes of his Dreamsongs. I am bouncy that HBO has bought the series and it will come out--some year. I can't believe some of the things happening, and I can't say a word because Nick is only on the first book. I have, thanks to GRRM, embraced multiple POV, third person. I bought a cheap laptop off of Ebay and it has increased my output. LOL. Work is way too busy and draining me dry. And yes, we have new help, and I am still being drained dry.

Tiff is doing well, and has decided to keep on at OU two more semesters, at least. Kelly is driving, but he isn't that enthusiastic about it! One would think knowing I will be buying him a car, that he'd be demanding to drive all the time, but no... LOL.

[klgrem.livejournal.com]

Haha. I think I know how Kelly feels. I don't particularly like to drive either.
But it's a necessary evil.
Good to hear about Tiff. That's great. :)