I HAVE WORDS for you Amand_R!

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amand_r  gave me words, and is making me say what they mean to me.  So here we go, cuz we must not disappoint the Amand_R!

Let there first be:

1.  CAKE!  I'm not sure why cake came to Amand_r's mind in association with me, given I don't eat cake, never make cake, etc. OH  YEAH  JAR  CAKES!  I  AM  A  silly WIRED  DORK!    But, I did wake up the other morning to find that my son Kelly (he is 17) had made cake for himself and the 2-9 other boys who seem to be at my house all the time these days.  This would be my son, at the Concerts in the Garden thing that we went to last week (and Jaimie and Courtney, Tiff's friends...and Casey's legs). He doesn't LOOK very nerdy--but believe me, he is. LOL. 

2.   HUSKIES!  Anyone who knows me knows I have two huskies. Apparently, those who know me well know never to say a thing about huskies else I'll launch into waxing poetically about what an amazing, intelligent, experssive, silly, adorable, loving breed they are. The black and white one, Maddox, is supposed to be my son's, and when cruentum  was here last year (so long ago!) he adopted the red and white, Shelby.  So maybe I don't have huskies at all--I just take care of everyone else's. 

(Note the weird one, Shelby, is Nick's)

And yes, I will be worried to death about them while I'm gone. Of course I will.  Gulp.

3. TRAVEL.   Travel!  Seeing the world! Exploring places I've never been! To not have the next trip's planning started soon as I am home from going somewhere, well...I get ansty. Anxious even, that damn clock ticking in my head.  I've lived here in one place all my life, the kid of two people who just rather stay home, and then I went and married someone who would rather stay home too...I'm making up for lost time!  I fairly BURST with the desire to see other cultures, amazing new sites, countries I once never imagined I'd set foot in.   I don't understand why anyone would NOT want to know and see and experience as much as possible in life. Really, and I do know people like that. My boss for one--he thinks I am nuts to want to go outside the US. The most exotic travel he does is go to Pensacola. *rolls eyes*

Sometimes, it just breaks me that I didn't start traveling until I was in my 40's.  I know there are many places I wish I could go to, but won't be able to, and I feel cheated, honestly.  I'm not sure why out of all my family I'm the one with the need to see and do and explore, but I've passed that on to my daughter, and am glad I've been able to send her to Europe twice already, and she and my son will be going to Italy in the spring of '10.  I want my kids to have what I didn't for too long--a vivid awareness that their home is just a single spot in a huge, amazing world.

4.  SAVAGE GARDEN.  Ahh the boys who made me love slash!

It is funny, I was not actually a SG fan per se when I started to write them. I had Affirmation,  knew the chica cherry cola song as a fun summer song, but that's about it.  I didn't have any awareness that fandoms even existed until I stumbled across the SG fandom and klgrem most notably.  She befriended me and heck, I can't even remember what led to what...I think an internet search had me stumble upon the above pic, and...I don't know! Next thing I knew I was reading alot of the popular fics in the fandom, which by then was pretty much in its death throes as Hayes and Jones had split and not amicably.  Someone named Aussie Ray did a very good vid about it, and it was that video, really, that got me to writing a fic about the whole shebang, even though so many of the best writers in the fandom had already moved on. I didn't care, I just wanted to write, NEEDED to write, and I could barely stand not writing. Damn, I miss that...

That fic I called Odyssey...it was my sanity.  It would take a post in and of itself to explain what this fic has meant and still means to me--I reworked it and sold it to Loose-Id Publishing some years later, where it still is selling very well--but honestly? That was in the past, that time of my life over.  I am now healthy, happy, loved, and am no longer the desperately lonely, scared, exhausted and emotionally starved person I was back then.  (only drawback? I'm not writing like I used to--not by a long shot.  If I write best when I am a mess, my writing career is in serious trouble)

and last...

5. CUTE HAIRCUTS.  This one makes me shake my head at you, Amand_r.  Or at myself.  WHY this?  Although I do love my hair cut like this.  It is slightly whacked, just like me!

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1. CAKE IN A JAR.

5. YOUR HAIRCUT IS CUTE. IT'S A HAIRCUTE.

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Nick whomped me about cake in a jar and I said, "But she shoulda said CAKE IN A JAR! It has been honestly about six years since I made jar cakes.

LOL on haircute. Okay...