I just don't want to do that anymore...

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I really don't. Honestly? That's what it comes down to. The desire is gone, and has been for a long, long time. It's about time I acknowlege that, and turn to what brings me joy.

I am, therefore, done.

-C

UPDATE: OMG! LOL! The tag tag see the tag? WRITING!!!!???? THAT THAT I AM TIRED OF WRITING SOMETHING!

I am sorry. Nick called me and said OMG WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT??????

UPDATE TWO: In fact, see my reply to scripps as I managed to articulate it down there. Another post coming tonight.

Oh my gosh I feel so free.

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I am FINE!!!!! I am happy! I made a decision--I am done with Loose-Id. I am not happy, I don't want to write m/m fiction. Every time I open that file, I think WHY AM I DOING THIS? I DO NOT LIKE IT NO MORE!!!

It doesn't make me happy. Why then am I tormenting myself with it? It makes no sense.

Your posts actually are part of this, you know. Make me think!

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Ok I had to come back and jump into another comment... I'm very glad to hear you're only doing something that's bringing you joy! That's what life is for, yes? It's too short to do things that make you unhappy. :D

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Having read the rest of your comments to others, I see now more clearly. So you are not giving up writing, you just decided to write what you like. That's wonderful!!!

I'm so relieved. I mean, it would be okay for you to give it up completely, if this is what feels right for you. But I wouldn't want to lose you as a fellow writer - *is selfish*

And I thought, OMG, I wrote all that stuff about being passionate, and what if I've cause C to feel bad about herself? And now I'm very relieved to hear that you are happy, and that you let go of the obligations that were nothing but slowing you down.

*twirls you*