Carolyn

Today, you have been odd.

Had no sleep last night--sent Nick a phonepic of my clock at 1:15 a.m. with a whiny message but that wasn't the last time I looked at the clock. Then, suddenly my alarm went off--I am trying to stay with a 7:30 a.m. up-time regardless of what I do--so up I got. Then daughter comes to me crying--her BFF#4 (lotsa BFF's has she) lost his mother this morning after a ten year battle with illness. It was expected, but they are very close, hope to be roommates eventually, and all this brings back lots of hard memories for Tiff of when her dad died. But Troy needs her and she's been with him all day.

I accomplished nothing today other than dealing with that (lotsa hugs). Read over two fics I had beta'd, happy to see them both wrapped up, and watched lots of Supernatural (episodes of which seemed to have become like my comfort blanket--I barely pay attention, really, but the boys do a good job keeping me company), sorted shoes (daughter has a HUGE basketful, and they were all right at the door, geesh), and played with the dogs.

At least later today was more productive! Made a post on my pro blog (feels very weird to post things there), wrote a bunch of junk re: my fantasy magic system, and...

THIS POST IS BORING, RIGHT? I KNOW!!!!!!

I wanted to work on my Merlin Big Bang, but I just now opened it for the first time today. It needs work work work and I am in the mood of 'man, what is the point?' re: writing it for that purpose. I would rather beta, honestly--I love beta'ing my writers. They need to hurry up and write more so I can beta more, right?

I am also determinedly trying not to think of my phone hearing on Monday. Oh yes, didn't I mention? Bastards at my former place of employment are trying to fight my unemployment. I am not afraid, definitely not of that bastard (who my lovely writing group promises to kill off in their fics--love them) but very, very annoyed. I don't want to deal with this, but will, because I am right and they are wrong. Bastards.

Happily, I got my ESOP money finally, so at least there is plenty in the bank. What would make me even happier? To hear from Loose-Id would make me REALLY happy. Really really really really.

In fantasy news, things are marching along, though in an unexpected manner--one of my characters became something that I didn't expect, which is leading me to create a whole culture I hadn't expected to. Also, it seems there will be water dragons...kinda cool, that. I hope to start writing on this soon. Ready or not, I need to get going.


I wish I was going to England...

So, work kinda sucked in a weird way today. It was review day and I got mine--partially. To be finished on Monday, after Doran, the boss boss (he who fired my boss, Cody, Jeremy, yeah him--and is usually in Topeka) discusses with Human Resources our discussion today. Apparently, it is a no no to have Netflix mailed to work, now it is suddenly (and not just for me) a no no to watch movies (or listen to them) at work (audiobooks are fine), and also, I am In Trouble for using the copier to print off a slew of flyers for my daughter's internship, Samaritan House. Now the funny thing is I was told if I had asked If I could run them off, then it would've been fine, that B&W does this kind of thing all the time. And it is of course okay to run 10-20 copies here and there, everyone does it, but I apparently have been accused of running off 1500. Uhhh... what? I do believe after he heard what it was for--and admitted that Deb, up in Topeka, had told me it was okay--that there will be no big consequence. If there is, well, whatever.

It was an interesting discussion to say the least. Chris, my former boss, has been concerned that I would get smacked down for something inane because they know now that I talk to him all the time, and I was always happy working for Chris. [I've been kind of expecting something but I figured it would be for talking on the cell phone (mostly to Nick lol), or being on the 'nets (which I have to for what I do and generally DO stay off of twitter and lj during work--generally), or having googlemail open all the time. The only person I chat with at all anymore is Nick, and that is just here and there--chat warps my brain, I decided, and interfered with everything I wanted to get done. I am much happier without chatting, very true on that.]

But no, it was none of those things, it was stupid netflix, my laptop, and running copies. After the conversation Doran expressed concern I'd be upset, not want to go to the Christmas party tomorrow, etc. I said no, of course not. I'm cool. LOL. And I am, really. This is all so stupid, and I don't trust him, and I am quite good at playing the game, have been for weeks now.

LOL just talked to Chris-ex-boss. He believes that more than anything, Doran is testing how I react to his calling me on the carpet. I agree, actually, based on what I know about him. Stay tuned for Monday and I'll report what actually ended up happening.

In the meantime, tomorrow night is our Christmas Party, and I am bringing my daughter. Told Doran my daughter was my date (and is 21) and he would get to meet her then, oh boy! LOL. And oh no, I am absolutely never saying a word of this to Tiff. She would be very upset that her project got me a 'corrective action.' Oy!

So anyway, the above is why I have suddenly flocked my lj. I am not sure if my work computer doesn't have some link buried in it somewhere, and you never know. I won't get on lj at work again if I can help it. Okay maybe a little but I will keep logged out when not on there AND delete all my passwords. That's a good idea...first thing Monday. I already deleted Dropbox off there--would not be good if they could access my writing especially with all that gay stuff... (oy!)

And now I must get to work on my rewrite. I can just imagine what my employer would think if they knew I wrote that wicked stuff, oh lordy! LOL. The thought amuses me...