I really, seriously, want to know

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How the heck do all of you guys keep up with everything? What is the secret? Why can't I? I am behind EVERYWHERE...I want to read fics, I want to read TW3, I want to be active on my flist, on TWU, I want to play with socks, I want to finish my fic for lgbtfest, I want to get to know people better, I want...

I want to know how come I can't seem to do any of this. WTH.

Very depressing is my life at times though given what is going on with some very special people on my flist, I have no right to complain. Not by a long shot.

So, I guess I'd just best shut up. I just wanted to whine a second. Wail.

C, being eaten alive by work and RL and tired of it

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Most of these people don't have kids. This is my theory on how they do so much. Also, I found I got more Internet stuff done when I gave up TV. And commuting, you do that, right? That's a major time-suck. Do you write in your head while commuting? I used to write in my head (not *just* a euphemism for fantasizing hot boy-on-boy action scenes) while I walked to and from the playground, and stood about watching the girl play on swings and in mud and such.

Wail away, though -- it helps. It's a series of tough choices, when you have so many things in your life that you find to be fun and fulfilling that there isn't time for them all. On the plus side, though, if you're that kind of person, you're going to find joy all over the place.

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Kids, and the awful commute. When I first started working for the railroad, they were downtown, only 15 minutes away. Heaven! Then they moved further out--30 minutes--and I got the job with Bartlett & West (was a contractor at BNSF which allowed me to work 9-4, perfect for the kids)...and that was out there too. And then we moved to the railroad campus. And of course, I-35...is hell. Argh!

Yeah, I have done all sorts of things to entertain myself on teh drive--from studying German (until I got frustrated with the lack of written material to back up what I was learning) and listening to the radio, listening to books, etc. I also talk to Nick in the evenings on the way home, though lately he's been crashing earlier...boo hiss. LOL.

I am just so tired of the long commute for how it eats into life. Nothing I can do about it, except find a different job and no way.

I do find it helpful to fantasize about scenes I am about to write--it is almost essential. Gotta know where I am going. That's how I have the entire lgbtfest fic 'written' already, adn work out a lot of problems. In the shower too.

I do have to make choices every night--only so much time in the evenings, and i go to bed around 11. I am slowly trying to get into a regular routine now that N is usually in bed before I get home. That *IS* helping, but I have had to work through a very difficult period fo actually getting used to being alone in the evenings! Oy! I did not like it, at all!!! Still don't, but I am I think working through that okay now. Pretty much. Talking to friends (smile) sure helps in the evenings... :)

I guess I am getting there, slowly. If only I had a maid though...sure would be nice! LOL.