I really, seriously, want to know

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How the heck do all of you guys keep up with everything? What is the secret? Why can't I? I am behind EVERYWHERE...I want to read fics, I want to read TW3, I want to be active on my flist, on TWU, I want to play with socks, I want to finish my fic for lgbtfest, I want to get to know people better, I want...

I want to know how come I can't seem to do any of this. WTH.

Very depressing is my life at times though given what is going on with some very special people on my flist, I have no right to complain. Not by a long shot.

So, I guess I'd just best shut up. I just wanted to whine a second. Wail.

C, being eaten alive by work and RL and tired of it

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Kids, and the awful commute. When I first started working for the railroad, they were downtown, only 15 minutes away. Heaven! Then they moved further out--30 minutes--and I got the job with Bartlett & West (was a contractor at BNSF which allowed me to work 9-4, perfect for the kids)...and that was out there too. And then we moved to the railroad campus. And of course, I-35...is hell. Argh!

Yeah, I have done all sorts of things to entertain myself on teh drive--from studying German (until I got frustrated with the lack of written material to back up what I was learning) and listening to the radio, listening to books, etc. I also talk to Nick in the evenings on the way home, though lately he's been crashing earlier...boo hiss. LOL.

I am just so tired of the long commute for how it eats into life. Nothing I can do about it, except find a different job and no way.

I do find it helpful to fantasize about scenes I am about to write--it is almost essential. Gotta know where I am going. That's how I have the entire lgbtfest fic 'written' already, adn work out a lot of problems. In the shower too.

I do have to make choices every night--only so much time in the evenings, and i go to bed around 11. I am slowly trying to get into a regular routine now that N is usually in bed before I get home. That *IS* helping, but I have had to work through a very difficult period fo actually getting used to being alone in the evenings! Oy! I did not like it, at all!!! Still don't, but I am I think working through that okay now. Pretty much. Talking to friends (smile) sure helps in the evenings... :)

I guess I am getting there, slowly. If only I had a maid though...sure would be nice! LOL.