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It sucks to write a big post and have it fall apart. A redo:
1. Cardiff and London: We have airplane tickets, train tickets, we have tickets to see Priscilla Queen of the Desert for TWO shows, and The Little Dog Laughed in London. Four nights in Cardiff, four in London. Walking along a certain beach...good times to come. Not near long enough but this is how our lives have been, are, and will be.
2. Exams: Nick is in the midst of his oral exams. We see each other in less than a month but he has to get through these during these next few weeks. So, it is hard to be all excited WHEE LESS THAN A MONTH! when he has all this to get through. But...I can't help it.
3. Stress: My dentist noted I am really stressed (and it is causing me teeth-jaw problems). She is right. This month has been a little much to deal with...taxes, social security nightmare, my son wrecking my car, my daughter getting her car stuck on a curb (srsly, and I lost it and cried, I seriously just.am.sick.of.this.crap), illnesses, dental stuff, other stuff, bills, worrying over friends and family and boyfriends and and and AHH! Always something! I clench my teeth while asleep AND during the day, but have been trying valiantly to relax, to breathe deep when I realize I am doing it and relax (like now), and to try to focus not on the worries but on the good stuff. (It also helps Nick that I do this--poor guy, I've had so much craziness come up this month I've tried not to wail about it, but damn...what a month!).
( more more more more )
I guess that is it for now. I, in no way, said what I started out to say, which was something along the lines of how important it is to not stress about life and to not let it eat you up, how cutting back in areas of life so other areas of life can flourish is a good thing, how trusting oneself to learn new things can bring a different(and maybe unexpected) kind of happiness, how taking the time to relax and enjoy the quiet moments can open up unexpected thoughts. Good thoughts. Powerful thoughts, thoughts that are sorting themselves out about alot of things. I meant to say all those things, but didn't.
Or did I?
1. Cardiff and London: We have airplane tickets, train tickets, we have tickets to see Priscilla Queen of the Desert for TWO shows, and The Little Dog Laughed in London. Four nights in Cardiff, four in London. Walking along a certain beach...good times to come. Not near long enough but this is how our lives have been, are, and will be.
2. Exams: Nick is in the midst of his oral exams. We see each other in less than a month but he has to get through these during these next few weeks. So, it is hard to be all excited WHEE LESS THAN A MONTH! when he has all this to get through. But...I can't help it.
3. Stress: My dentist noted I am really stressed (and it is causing me teeth-jaw problems). She is right. This month has been a little much to deal with...taxes, social security nightmare, my son wrecking my car, my daughter getting her car stuck on a curb (srsly, and I lost it and cried, I seriously just.am.sick.of.this.crap), illnesses, dental stuff, other stuff, bills, worrying over friends and family and boyfriends and and and AHH! Always something! I clench my teeth while asleep AND during the day, but have been trying valiantly to relax, to breathe deep when I realize I am doing it and relax (like now), and to try to focus not on the worries but on the good stuff. (It also helps Nick that I do this--poor guy, I've had so much craziness come up this month I've tried not to wail about it, but damn...what a month!).
( more more more more )
I guess that is it for now. I, in no way, said what I started out to say, which was something along the lines of how important it is to not stress about life and to not let it eat you up, how cutting back in areas of life so other areas of life can flourish is a good thing, how trusting oneself to learn new things can bring a different(and maybe unexpected) kind of happiness, how taking the time to relax and enjoy the quiet moments can open up unexpected thoughts. Good thoughts. Powerful thoughts, thoughts that are sorting themselves out about alot of things. I meant to say all those things, but didn't.
Or did I?
